Saturday, February 26, 2011
I have been joking that shopping has taken over for my food addiction, but when I take a look at my behavior, I think it's true-- not a joke.
There are a couple of issues at play. One, we sort of decided that we're strongly leaning toward being childless by choice (not trying one last time after I lose weight-- the reason I got the surgery, actually) and that comes with the realization that we are two professionals living without a huge financial obligation. In other words, we're finally making pretty good money for only two people to have to live on so we've got disposable income. Second, going clothes shopping and continuously fitting in smaller and smaller sizes is a hugely reinforcing NSV. So not only have I been telling myself "I can afford this", I've also been telling myself "I deserve this."
It's gotten to the point where I'm worried though. For the last two months I've had to transfer money from savings before the end of the month (not cool) and even more worrisome than that, I've spent the last week or two of the month actively looking forward to the next month so I can go shopping again.
My mother is compulsive with spending money (shopping, and even more horribly, gambling) and I have always promised myself that I would not be like her. She and her husband are in a desperate place financially (bankrupt for the 2nd time in her life, and the IRS is garnishing her wages) and its not like I am ANYWHERE near that, but boy does this seem like it has the potential to spin out of control.
So here is my public vow. March will be the month of no new clothes. March will be the month of no new shoes. March will be the month of no unnecessary spending.
I'll let you know how it goes.